♥ Out The Window
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
In between the state of half
conscious and awake.
Unlike my siblings, i only have about a week of hols. Then a couple of days of classes before my trials. I have a shit load of crap to study for trials. My progress so far, 0. I'm so fucked, i know. Not to mention, i have a 1500 words report on Behavioural Assertiveness due on next Tuesday. So yeah, my life's pretty awesome, no?
I remember last Friday as i nervously glance at my watch every few minutes. Why?
Cuz i know that as soon as class ends, i won't be seeing you for a week
atleast. And
i'm so afraid to look at you on my way home, for fear of what i might see in your reaction i guess. I could not bring myself to find out. Call me a coward, maybe i am.
I did think that as long as we have some time and space in between, things might turn out better as we're more relaxed and we have kept our distance from right and wrong. That's what i thought
atleast. So when this break came along,
i'm more than glad
tbh. I crawl into bed everyday when the sun comes up, pull the covers tightly around myself and force my eyes shut. No matter how hard i try, you're the last person that crosses my mind
everynight without fail. The second i open my eyes, there you are again. The thought of you there is like a sharp blade slicing through me every single time, leaving fresh wounds behind.
I miss the smell of you. The warmth of your arms around me. Comforting me and there to give me guidance
everytime i needed it. The way your smile lights up your face and how cheerful you are all the time. I miss everything you did for me.
Most of all, i miss you.
