All the chasing and mind games.

All the little hints and clues dropped along the way.

The feeling of electrical impulses shooting through the tips of our fingers when it met.

Trying to catch each other's eyes and locking our gaze before turning away shyly.

Stutterings and word slips.

How seeing you will make my day.

The way we will always run into each other at all the unexpected times.

How whenever you cross my mind and a second later you'll be there standing in front of my eye.

All the inside jokes that we shared.

How you had always had my back and gave me space to grow and learn.

Times when you're so patient with me when anyone else would have killed me by then.

That very moment when everything in the world seemed to be perfect, where time stood still and nothing else matters.

When i had nothing to worry about and i know no matter what i will pull through with you there by my side.

New memories were created and made significant to us.

The time when i felt whole again, where the wounds left behind by M seem to hurt less all a sudden.

Being able to smile genuinely and every single laughter was real and seemed right.

But above all, would be that feeling that you had brought up in me again, a feeling that i thought would never resurface again, a feeling i thought was lost forever buried deep in all the hurt that i had felt ever since M.

And just for that, i would do it all over again. All the laughter, tears, sleepless nights, early mornings and joy that you had brought into my life.

I want to go through it all as many times again as i could, if that's the only way for us to be together again.

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