Anyways, finals begin next week which is 2 days from now.

And i'm not fucking ready at all. Ugh.

It's so scary that in the blink of an eye i'm about done with college real soon.

*gulp*

As much as how SAM tires me out, i'm actually kinda afraid and sad that it's ending.

Afraid cuz i've never been so uncertain with my future before and sad because i'll prolly never see you again.

Funny how life can fuck around with you eh?

I can't help but realize that things are so much easier in the movies.

Even getting over someone or healing from a heartbreak seems so much more bearable.

Sadly, this is reality and this doesn't work the same way.

In reality, getting over someone takes a huge toll on you whether one decides to admit it or not.

I was thinking about all the time spent with you, sharing inside jokes that only you and i know of, stealing smiles hoping no one will catch us, how our fingertips will brush ever so gently, all the tiny things we did that never failed to put a smile on both our faces making us grin like kids on Christmas morning.

The risk of getting caught made it all the more exciting.

I know that even if i was able to move forward and put this all behind me, i will still miss all those things we did together, all the laughs and tears, everything.

I know the chances of us having a proper conversation even a short one will be close to impossible now with all the circumstances.

How i wish for a chance, just one last chance, to be able to bid farewell to you.

Nothing much, that's all i ask for.

Just one last chance for me to say goodbye to you properly.

Like i mentioned earlier, this is reality and things don't just magically falls into place like how it does in the movies.

We all know just wishing is never enough.